Several circumstances, including the onset of COVID-19, caused him to reconsider the meaning of his vocation, and where he was truly called to be. For John and his wife, the intercession of Mary and the saints — especially St. Boniface — were the final thing that really convinced them they needed to become Catholic.

Read a written version of John’s testimony

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However, as he continued to study what the earliest Christians actually believed and how they worshipped, Lawain began to notice several things present in history that were absent from his own belief and worship.

He decided to seek out a spiritual home where all those elements of early Christian doctrine and practice were still living realities; and that search eventually led him to the Catholic Church.

Watch Lawain on The Journey Home.

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Courtney has also shared a written version of her testimony: read it here.

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The COVID lockdowns provided an opportunity for him to re-evaluate what it meant for him to be a Christian, and where he ought to be worshipping. His study and prayer led him to finally take the steps necessary to come home to the Catholic Church.

Find more of Justin’s work at Why Catholic.

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As the opening line of the Rule of St. Benedict states, “Listen carefully, my son, to the master’s instructions, and attend to them with the ear of your heart.” I’m writing this on the Memorial of St. Benedict, a fitting time to reflect and be thankful. So get ready for “lift-off” as my journey home into the fullness of the faith and service in the Catholic Church takes flight.

The Early Years

I was born in 1957, at the dawn of the “space-age,” when the Russian satellite Sputnik set the Space Race in motion between the United States and the Soviet Union. Just south of Seattle, WA, where my brother, sister, and I were born, my father was employed as a Boeing engineer working in Space and Defense. This meant he worked on many projects related to Cold War issues and directly on the Saturn V main stage rocket, which eventually sent Neil Armstrong, Buzz Aldrin, and Michael Collins to the moon and safely home. Because of my father’s work, we moved wherever Boeing sent us — from Seattle to Huntsville, back to Seattle, down to Cape Canaveral and Cocoa Beach, and then back to Seattle for good. My childhood was shaped by NASA and Boeing, interest in beauty and the arts, and the great outdoors. This background would help shape an unexpected pilgrimage into a strange, yet beautiful, world of grace, love, and wonder for me as an ex-Evangelical Protestant pastor, for my wife Diane, and our two teenage girls.

My memories of church life during my early childhood, mostly at a small Missouri Synod Lutheran Church in Huntsville, AL, are vague but important memories of loving people who treated both my siblings and my mother with kindness. (My father rarely attended.) My mother did a good job giving us a knowledge of God’s existence and basic Christian morality formed from the Ten Commandments. Flannel graphics were a favorite of mine, especially before Sunday school classes began depicting rocket launches and safe re-entry instead of religious principles. One significant event from this time occurred on a Sunday after church, as I was watching a weekly program on a Christian television station. I remember this episode had to do with a family tragedy, and as I watched the program, the thought ran through my mind that, as an adult, I would like to be helping families with hardships and challenges. This experience still guides me.

As I grew older and began high school, my family’s involvement in church waned. I became enthralled with the NFL and Sunday football. In short, we soon became “Christmas and Easter Christians” and neglected church life in general. If I had to describe where I was in my spiritual life at that time, I would say that I was a believer in God but didn’t see how God could be interested in my life. I did believe Jesus was the Son of God, but I had no concept of what that meant or why it mattered. As for the Holy Spirit, somehow, He was part of this, but how, I had no clue. In fact, my life after high school was rather confused and unguided. I had no idea where I was going or how to formulate a plan to get anywhere. Boeing and engineering didn’t interest me; working at Boeing in any capacity didn’t interest me; a career in business didn’t interest me either.

For the first time in my life, I began to search for a purpose, a deeper meaning in life, and goals to pursue. College sounded like it could help provide an answer to these questions, so I effectively rolled the dice and wound up at Western Washington University in Bellingham, WA. I had no idea what I was going to study, but I was drawn to psychology and sociology.

Ora et Labora — Prayer and Work

In 1978, I arrived at Western Washington University in Bellingham, WA, just south of the Canadian border and north of Seattle, in the afterglow of the “Jesus Movement” of the late 60s and early 70s. I quickly became involved in campus ministry, previously unaware that such a thing even existed on college campuses. In the dormitories were numerous posters recruiting students to any number of secular and religious group meetings. One of those was for Campus Crusade for Christ, which I visited and became involved in for a short time with a friend I met on the crew team. Here I was introduced to the Four Spiritual Laws, and even helped my teammate lead people to Christ. One day, this same friend asked if I had ever visited a monastery. I had not, so he invited me to visit a Benedictine Abbey, just across the border in Mission, British Columbia, Canada, named Westminster Abbey. Here, I was introduced to a new world of beauty, peace, and prayer which would begin my long journey deeper into Jesus’ heart and eventually into the Catholic Church.

The beauty of the monastery was stunning. Overlooking the Fraser River, with a north side view of Mt. Baker in Washington State, bald eagles flying overhead, and big timber all around, the impact of this first visit still remains with me many years later.

In fact, I have visited this monastery many times over the years and have brought groups up for retreats and study. Yet it was the beauty and artistry of one of the monks’ works displayed in the chapel and around the monastery that focused my attention on God’s creativity through human genius. The monk’s name was Father Dunstan Massey, OSB, and he was quite well known as an artist around the Fraser River Valley. He specialized in concrete reliefs and frescos, and his artistry speaks to me of God’s wonder. Indeed, his work was his prayer.

Father Dunstan, the grandeur of creation, and other encounters with God through beauty became a gentle path deeper into His love and compassion, which would prove to be of immense consolation in the storms of life to come. The Benedictine Rule would become a huge influence on my life. St. Benedict’s 12 Steps of Humility and their impact on the shaping of the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous became patterns within the development of my ministry over the years. The Benedictine motto, “Ora et Labora” (prayer and work), is a simple and profound way to live and learn a life of prayer and devotion “one day at a time.”

I graduated with a Bachelor of Arts in Psychology and learned that, while I had become a good listener and loved to minister on the streets, in jails, and occasionally on campus, this was not the most employable degree. As a result, I spent a year doing carpentry with a friend. After this time, I was invited to intern with an Assemblies of God campus ministry (Chi Alpha) with the hope of being equipped enough to pioneer a campus group on a college campus that had a supporting church nearby desiring a new chapter. We studied from well-known works of Protestant Evangelical theologians, occasionally mixed with an Anglican and, very rarely, a Catholic spiritual perspective. We conducted street dramas, traveled to different parts of the western United States to help other campus ministries, led small groups, raised our own funds, and generally became confident that we could pioneer a campus group anywhere we were called. Soon, I would indeed be called upon to begin a new campus ministry, but I needed a partner to go on this adventure with me. Diane would become that partner.

Diane and I met when we were both college students. I didn’t know her well in those years, but during this year of internship, our relationship began to flower. I admired her faith in Jesus, her prayer life, and her willingness to step out of her comfort zone in teaching, street ministry/drama, and planning outreach. Of course, I also thought she was cute.

At the end of our internship year, we were teamed up to start a campus group in Kearney, Nebraska at what was then known as Kearney State College. We set out on a cross-country adventure to another culture amidst the cornfields and hog farms of south-central Nebraska, right along the Platte River. Here, our relationship would be tried in the difficult circumstances of a new culture, an unfamiliar land with intense winters and springs, and of a longing for the big timber, mountains, and flowing water of the Pacific Northwest. Despite the difficulties, our two years spent in Nebraska were fruitful. The campus ministry grew, and Diane and I grew closer. We were engaged in Kearney. Then we said good-bye to our Nebraska friends and headed back to the Evergreen State to start our new life as a married couple.

During our time in Nebraska, we had become acquainted with many campus pastors from different denominations, all of whom were very helpful to us. What Diane and I quickly discovered, however, was that our internship in campus ministry fell short in equipping us to converse with them in matters of church history, theology, and much of pastoral ministry. As a result, I desired to go to seminary and learn about these different subjects. We needed to earn money for that to happen, though, so off we went to Alaska and Yukon to drive tour buses in the Great White North for two seasons before I took the plunge into seminary.

I began my studies at Regent College in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada, an interdenominational seminary begun by two Anglican Professors from England — J.I. Packer and James Houston. This was a marvelous place to learn (and I must say that many themes introduced to us here eventually found their fulfillment in the Catholic Church). Over a four-year period, we learned about Church History, Christian Spirituality, Systematic Theology, Preaching, Pastoral Care, Greek, Hebrew, and most important to our journey, the Early Church Fathers and beauty. The Early Church Fathers introduced to us an intriguing world of commitment to the Eucharist, prayer, and tradition, aspects of the Church we would later come to understand in a truly Catholic perspective instead of a curious, but still Protestant, worldview. All this we received as God’s gifts in our lives. It was a wonderful time of reception — a time of filling.

Memento Mori — Remember that You Will Die

As I worked toward the completion of my Master’s Degree in Theological Studies, I concentrated on Pastoral Care and Family Ministries. At this time, I was working in an addiction recovery center for adults and teens, helping families deal with recovery issues and treatment plans. Diane was working at a local nursing home and caring for a neglected population of elderly people. After graduation from seminary, I was eventually hired as an associate pastor with a large, local Assemblies of God church which functioned more like an Evangelical community church. This was the same church that sponsored the college campus group where Diane and I had interned. It was quite familiar to us and was an honor to serve on staff. My duties included running counseling services and recovery groups, developing internships in pastoral care, expanding our local food pantry into a food bank, and partnering with community services in the county to help families. I enjoyed this work and felt called to care for people in distress. However, during the 16 years I worked at the church, there were three experiences, all having to do with personal trauma and loss, which drew us into a search for consolation and care which only the Catholic Church was able to provide.

The first of these experiences was the discovery of our infertility as a couple. Anyone who has been part of this journey knows what a loss and burden it can be for a couple totally open to children and wanting to raise a family. In this struggle, we found there really was nowhere we could turn to find comfort or solace. We knew of no groups, no people to talk with, and no support. We were alone, and our church had no resources to help us. Diane and I spent five years praying for God’s direction amid this suffering. Were we to have children? Should we utilize artificial means to conceive? Is adoption for us? Where and how do we proceed with adoption? How are children to be part of our lives? These questions drove us deeper into prayer and into intense listening for God’s guidance.

The Lord did indeed guide us and grant us comfort during these difficult years. We came to the firm conviction that the Lord wanted us to pursue adoption overseas in China. We were in the early wave of North Americans adopting Chinese orphans. Due to the one-child policy instituted by the Communist government, many “unwanted” female babies were either aborted, victims of infanticide, or sent to crowded orphanages where they were cared for as well as they could be by the staff. Describing the adventures of this adoption experience would require an additional story; suffice it to say we traveled to China without a child and two weeks later came back with our eight-month-old daughter, Amy. Two years later, we would head to Vladivostok, Russia, to adopt our youngest daughter, Anna, also eight months old. As we settled into life as a new family of four, we were surprised that the pain of infertility was overwhelmed by the joy of adopting our children. Every family is a miracle; ours is no exception.

As the years passed, we nurtured our family and our ministry, building a community of care and outreach in the church. In time, the mission of the church became obscured, and growing a church in numbers became the top priority. In the midst of this change, the second of three losses occurred in our lives — the sudden death of my mother due to cancer. She was the hub of the family, and her death brought about profound changes in my extended family. This was a time of confusion and deep grief. Coupled with the changes in the church, we found ourselves longing once again for solace and community, but found none. We were searching intently for a deeper meaning and purpose of the people of God and church worship.

This search steered me into a doctoral program in urban leadership and spiritual formation at Bakke Graduate University (based in Seattle at the time, now based in Dallas). In this program, we learned more about the spirituality and leadership of serving the needs of the poor in urban settings, of creating communities of care and outreach, and of diving into the mystery and majesty of human interaction in the act of ministering care in God’s compassion. I would often pray in the St. Ignatius chapel at Seattle University and found this space compelling, drawing me toward beauty and prayer. Here, I discovered many more contemporary Catholic authors and people who became heroes to me. Diane and I were also drawn to Celtic Catholic spirituality and the “thin places” of the world, those places where heaven and earth are thinly veiled to one another. We had no idea that this would be the perfect description of the Catholic Mass, but the journey was beginning to take on new dimensions for us. It was also here that I came across a wonderful quote from G.K. Chesterton in his masterpiece, Orthodoxy, giving us insight to the Christian life.

“Christianity satisfies suddenly and perfectly man’s ancestral instinct for being the right way up; satisfies it supremely in this; that by its creed joy becomes something gigantic and sadness something special and small.… Joy, which is the small publicity of the pagan, is the gigantic secret of the Christian.” (G.K. Chesterton, Orthodoxy, Hodder & Stoughton, London, 1996. p. 239.)

In 2007, I graduated with a Doctor of Ministry in Transformation Leadership and Spiritual Formation and soon after discerned that my time at the Assemblies of God church was coming to an end. Through a series of many staff changes and circumstances, Diane and I knew that our hearts were being pulled somewhere else, though where that would be, we did not know. We knew our view of the Communion service was changing, that the Lord was somehow present in ways we couldn’t articulate.

Our view of Mary was changing also. We knew that Protestants didn’t understand her or her role in salvation history. They could not help us answer the question of what her role was, and what our relationship with her ought to be. We knew it had to be more than a casual appreciation for her at Christmas.

One final issue that we could not resolve was the issue of authority. With so many opinions about Holy Scripture, what or whom were we to trust, and why should we trust them?

I resigned my position, which for a career pastor can be devastating, with the loss of income, an uncertain future, the disappearance of community and friends, and vanishing support networks. This was the third of the losses that would send us into a “desert wandering” for five years, until one Christmas Eve when our world was turned upside down.

My family loves Christmas. As part of our Christmas tradition, we would attend a Christmas Eve service somewhere in the county. Diane thought we needed a new experience of Christmas Eve as a family, so in her wisdom and attentiveness to the Holy Spirit, she suggested we attend Children’s Mass at Sacred Heart Parish, just up the hill from the church where I used to be employed. This sounded like a good idea to me, since I had been in the parish church occasionally to pray and look at the beauty of the sanctuary, statues, and candles. So, off we went to Children’s Mass. We had no idea what to expect, but knew the kids would be cute, Christmas carols would be sung, and hopefully English (and very little Latin) would be spoken. We were right! The kids were cute, Christmas carols that we knew were sung, everything in the church was decorated beautifully, and very little Latin was used. We were stunned!

We left that Mass wondering what the Lord was doing. While there, my eyes became fixed on the crucifix in the front of the church. It seemed that Jesus was speaking directly to me, saying that He knew the pains and sorrows of humanity, and more than that, the pains and sorrows my family and I had endured. He was saying that here, in the Mass, in the Catholic Church, our search for deeper meaning and purpose would find its answers. Here, Mary would be our Blessed Mother. Here, living water would finally quench our thirst.

We stayed away from the church, and from Mass, for two weeks trying to sort it out. We were a bit numb, but Diane and I were convinced that God was ushering us into full communion with the Catholic Church. We asked the girls if they desired to attend with us, and even if they desired to explore the possibility of becoming Catholic; they were game to try. So that we could become better prepared for this further adventure, we felt the need to find out more about the Church, if we could. We went to our local Barnes & Noble and found a book which became incredibly helpful to us, Catholicism for Dummies. We still refer to this book from time to time! Eventually, we were introduced to the parish priest. We invited him over to our house to pepper him with questions, attended RCIA, and prepared to enter the Church at the Easter Vigil in 2012.

Entering into full communion with the Church has been an oasis for us. Our journey has not been so much a wrestling with doctrine and tradition as it has been discovering where consolation, beauty, and joy manifest Jesus’ love on earth in the most deeply personal and authentic way. We have been overwhelmed by Jesus’ Real Presence in the Eucharist, the love of our Triune God and our Blessed Mother, and the wonder and beauty of the Church unfolding before us.

Why enter the Church in this time of trial and scandal? Perhaps it was precisely because of these wounds that the Lord led us here, to help tend to a Church that needs renewal, strength, and care.

A few years after our entrance into the Church, I started inquiring into the Diaconate upon the encouragement of our parish staff, not knowing what that entailed. It was a whole new world of potential pastoral involvement, and I wasn’t quite sure if I was up to the challenge. I told Diane, my wife, that unless someone approached me at coffee and donuts after Mass, I would forgo the honor. As I sat enjoying my donut and coffee after Mass, our parish priest made a beeline to me, telling me I needed to apply. I felt this was the Lord’s prompting! So I applied, was interviewed, along with Diane, and entered the formation process, which was quite challenging on every level.

In the second year of formation, we were graced with attending a Coming Home Network retreat at the Archbishop Brunett Retreat Center in Federal Way, WA, which was our home for formation throughout the years. The retreat was wonderful and life-giving, thanks to Jim Anderson, Ken Hensley, and Monsignor Steenson! On December 19, 2020, in the middle of the COVID pandemic, I was ordained a permanent deacon of the Catholic Church. It had been quite a journey!

In the years since my ordination, I have been impressed with the immense prayerfulness of God’s people and gained a growing love of the saints, especially St. Joseph and our Blessed Mother. I am filled with wonder as I serve the Mass and am thankful for the Divine Office, praying for the profound needs of the Church worldwide. I have also become a regular follower of On the Journey with Matt, Ken, and Kenny on the CHNetwork website, finding their insights helpful in the challenges of the diaconate.

Greater than those challenges, though, the diaconate has brought me fulfillment. Along with preparing and preaching homilies at Mass, it is one of my joys to pray for those who have died and to help those who struggle with loss to find a way home. My current role offers many opportunities to minister to bereaved families and pray for the souls of the dead as they are committed to God’s good earth, one of the corporal acts of mercy. This work brings me back to St. Benedict. One of the disciplines of the Benedictine Rule is to remember that we all will die, Memento Mori. It is not a morbid preoccupation with death, but a daily discipline to remind ourselves that our lives are short and need to be filled by the Holy Spirit with virtue, humility, and fortitude — the love of God.

Blessings to you on your own journey home! Kyrie Eleison!

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My passion for evangelization and mission had started in the summer of 2003, when as a seventh-grade boy, I traveled from Little Rock, Arkansas to Memphis, Tennessee for a week-long mission trip. During that time, I had the opportunity to put on Vacation Bible School for children in inner city housing projects, pray with families in hospital waiting rooms, and feed the homeless. I was even volunteered to preach to two hundred homeless men! I was too nervous to remember any of what I said, but it ended with thunderous applause and the intoxicating feeling that I had been used by God to aid people in their belief that Jesus is able and willing to save them, no matter what they are going through.

I rode the van from Memphis back to Little Rock with my Bible across my lap, praying that God would allow me to serve him like that for the rest of my life. More than anything, I wanted to live a life of evangelical commitment — obeying and proclaiming the Gospel of the Kingdom. Never in my life had I experienced the sense of joy and purpose that I did while serving others in Jesus’ name. I desperately hoped that God would allow me to serve him for the rest of my life and that he would use me to bring others into communion with him.

As a college student, my adolescent dream to be an evangelist and missionary began to find fulfillment. Clayton and I discussed our shared studies in Bible, theology, and missions, as well as our similar experiences in the Andes. To my left in the van, I noticed a pretty blond girl, eyes beaming with excitement as she discussed her recent return from Niger in Africa, where she, too, had been a foreign missionary. In less than a year, that college senior, Lauren, would become my wife. We had a mutual passion for Jesus Christ, the Gospel, the Scriptures, and evangelism, so it was easy to fall in love, believing that God had a purpose and calling for our new life together. Excited to join in His mission, we had no idea that this desire would eventually draw us into the Catholic Church.

My ten-week missionary endeavors did not result in the expected church-plant. The experience was, nonetheless, invaluable for my own formation. My ambition for the salvation of the people there revealed gaps in my theological formation. I had been raised to bring people into the “Church,” yet I had very little theological clarity as to what the “Church” was. Secondly, what are the boundaries of theological belief that determine whether or not a body of believers is actually Christian? Third, I realized that, although my background had laid much emphasis on initial conversion, it had less emphasis on ongoing conversion. I had pastoral intentions, yet very little pastoral training for helping people follow Christ across the long journey of life.

Returning to college, I put myself in the shoes of the people that I had attempted to evangelize. They were frequently proselytized by Evangelicals, Mormons, and Jehovah’s Witnesses, but they had cultural ties to Catholicism. If I were a villager in Peru, how would I adjudicate the competing claims to orthodoxy between these churches? My senior year, I took a course in American Christianity and was astounded by the proliferation, not only of varying denominations, but even cults in America. Having trained for foreign missions, I was deeply sensitive to religious syncretism. Indeed, even in the Old Testament, the people of God had attempted to blend Judaism with Canaanite practices (God was not impressed, as the prophets told them). I now looked at Christianity within my own cultural context and wondered if, as a foreign missionary, I was not a pot calling the kettle black. How much of Christianity in America was distinctly Christian and how much was just my own cultural values with a bit of Christianity sprinkled on top?

There were two axes that I could measure my own Christian upbringing against: history and universality. How did my understanding of the Bible and my own practice of the Christian life compare to that of Christians in other places and other times? Since Christianity proclaims the incarnation of God in time and space, it locates itself within history as an actual reality, accessible by faith. If the Church is the Body of Christ in time and space, then surely the Church as a recognizable, apostolic body did not vanish following the last chapter of the Acts of the Apostles.

From Newman to Early Church Fathers

At the time, I had no inkling that I was looking for “one holy, catholic, and apostolic Church” (I had not at this time even encountered the ancient Nicene Creed), nor was I aware of the conclusion that I would eventually share with Saint John Henry Cardinal Newman: “And this one thing at least is certain; whatever history teaches, whatever it omits, whatever it exaggerates or extenuates, whatever it says and unsays, at least the Christianity of history is not Protestantism. If ever there were a safe truth, it is this” (An Essay on the Development of Christian Doctrine,1). I had, however, decided, that if I discovered something that had been consistently true of Christianity in the past, then I would conform myself to that norm, rather than stubbornly clinging to my own familiar expectations. Setting out on a grand adventure for theological truth, my wife, Lauren, and I moved in 2013 from Arkadelphia, Arkansas to Birmingham, Alabama, where I would begin studies at Beeson Divinity School.

Beeson Divinity School is an interdenominational, evangelical Divinity School with a strong emphasis on the Protestant Reformation. I thoroughly enjoyed the academic rigor and ecumenical camaraderie of Beeson. There I was given the opportunity to learn from Baptists, Anglicans, Presbyterians, and Lutherans and observe how their theological beliefs translated into pastoral praxis. I was introduced to the early Church Fathers, and my mind was blown. I was overwhelmed by the beauty, integrity, and profundity of the theology and devotion of the early Church.

Exposure to Justin Martyr, a second century Christian apologist, demonstrated to me that the Church had a common liturgy, centering on the Eucharist. While still at Ouachita Baptist University, it had struck me that, if the Scriptures were a grand, epic narrative of salvation, then our Sunday gathering should be some type of liturgical reenactment, rather than a mere assortment of songs. The rich symbolism and imagery of Scripture, especially the book of Revelation, had convinced me that the Church’s worship on earth should pattern itself off the heavenly liturgy of the angels and saints. Through Justin Martyr, I discovered that the early Church had such a liturgy, which was rooted in the Scriptures and centered in the Eucharist. Testifying to the Eucharistic liturgy that the Church observed on every “Lord’s Day” (Sunday), he writes:

We call this food Eucharist; and no one else is permitted to partake of it, except one who believes our teaching to be true and who has been washed in the washing which is for the remission of sins and regeneration, and is thereby living as Christ has enjoined. For not as common bread nor common drink do we receive these; but since Jesus Christ our Savior was made incarnate by the word of God and had both flesh and blood for our salvation, so too, as we have been taught, the food which has been made into the Eucharist by the Eucharistic prayer set down by him, and by the change of which our blood and flesh is nourished, is both the flesh and blood of that incarnated Jesus. (First Apology, 66)

The early Church witnessed to a reality even greater than what I had hoped for. I longed for a liturgy that presented the redemptive work of God in Christ, according to the Scriptures. They offered a liturgy that presented the saving mystery of Christ because it actually participated in that mystery. The Eucharist was no mere symbol, but the actual Body and Blood of Jesus Christ (see John 6:51–58; 1 Corinthians 10:16–17).

St. Irenaeus of Lyons, a second century bishop, who was taught by St. Polycarp, who in turn was taught by the Apostle John, built upon what I discovered from St. Justin Martyr. If Justin Martyr introduced me to the early Church’s worship, then Irenaeus introduced me to the apostolic harmony between Church governance, worship, and faith, according to the Scriptures. He writes:

“The true knowledge is the doctrine of the Apostles, and the ancient organization of the Church throughout the whole world, and the manifestation of the body of Christ according to the succession of bishops, by which successions the bishops have handed down the Church which is found everywhere; and the very complete tradition of the Scriptures[.]” (Against Heresies, 4, 33, 8)

I was discovering a church whose witness, worship, and design were inherited from the Apostles, overflowing with beauty, and crowned with the glory of the martyrs. This Church could trace its origin to the Apostles themselves through this line of bishops. The Church that I discovered was intellectual yet devotional, speculative yet dogmatic, diverse yet unified, and organic yet organized.

Let the Little Children Come to Me

I was like a newborn child, filled with wonder and drinking deeply of the early Church’s young, deep faith. In the midst of this joy, my wife and I discovered another joy: her pregnancy with our first son, Ezekiel.

Space does not permit to share the full story of how and why Lauren and I knew before we met that we would have a son named Ezekiel. The fact that we did, and the meaning of the Hebrew prophet’s name — “God is my strength” — suggested to us that God had a special purpose for this boy. We wondered what future adversity called for such a strong name.

The imminent arrival of my firstborn son increased the urgency of the baptism question: should babies be baptized or not? My education in biblical theology taught me not to discount the many biblical depictions of water, Spirit, and rebirth (see Exodus 14, 2 Kings 5, Ezekiel 36:25–26, John 3, Romans 6, Titus 3:5). I began to see and understand the early Church’s belief that baptism is a sacrament, through which God grants us new life, incorporating us into Christ. As Christian parents, it was our joy and duty to present Ezekiel for baptism.

Being convinced that Baptism, the Eucharist, and Holy Orders were sacraments, Lauren and I joined the Anglican Church in North America (ACNA). We fell in love with the Anglican patrimony and its liturgical celebrations of the Christian year. During our second year in the Anglican Church, tragedy struck when I received a phone call from my son’s pediatrician. I was informed that my son was being admitted to the emergency room at Children’s Hospital in Birmingham, and that we were needed there as soon as possible. Hospital staff hovered over my thirteen-month-old son, poking him with IVs in the attempt to prevent diabetic coma. Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders, I felt a strong voice saying, “Don’t worry; that’s my son.” From that moment, the adoption that we receive in Baptism became a source of deep comfort to me.

In 2017, my wife and I left Birmingham, Alabama, with two healthy sons and a bright future. I had received my Master of Divinity degree from Beeson Divinity School and had been ordained a priest in the Anglican Church in North America. We drove south to Panama City Beach, Florida, where I would serve as a curate for church-planting. As a way to get to know and serve my community, I also became a police chaplain for the Panama City Beach Police Department. Church-planting brought everything we loved about evangelization and missions into a more historic form of Christianity. However, one of the darker chapters of my life was just beginning.

As a police chaplain, I rode along with police officers to provide spiritual accompaniment, pastoral care, and a listening ear. One fateful night, a man arrived at the police station, after hours, at the same moment that I arrived for a scheduled ride along. When the officer asked the troubled man what we could do for him, with haunted eyes and constricted voice, he explained that he was having difficulty breathing because of the demons that had just entered him through his and his uncle’s voodoo curses on each other.

The Battle Belongs to the Lord

Here I was, a Christian minister with increasingly Catholic beliefs, educated in a Protestant Divinity School. I had never had a class on exorcism. Yet in my classes, I saw very clearly that Jesus exorcized demons frequently. As a priest, I had the duty and honor of representing Christ in his compassion to deliver. Training or not, I had faith (and, so I thought, priestly authority)! With no explicit formula, I prayed with the man as best as I knew how and laid my hands on him. He improved, but I did not.

The police officers marveled at the demoniac man’s inexplicable transformation of psychological state. I, however, was plunged for months into paranormal activity that I did not understand. My senior pastor was concerned for my well-being and attempted to help me. My Anglican friends back in Birmingham were connected with the SSPI (Society for Special Pastoral Intervention) in the ACNA and said that I need to train with them in spiritual deliverance and exorcisms. I drove up to Birmingham, Alabama, for training in spiritual warfare.

I experienced much relief and am profoundly grateful for the care and compassion of the Anglican clergy who prayed with and for me. I was also deeply startled to hear from Anglican exorcists that demons were “triggered” by the Hail Mary and feared her intercession. This struck me as odd. Why were we Protestant Christians unsure of doing something that makes hell perpetually nervous? Just a year ago, I had received a beautiful Benedictine prayer book, but had shied away from praying the Hail Mary prayer in it. If, however, the demons actually feared the Virgin Mary, and if the blessing of her name was a perpetual reminder of that moment when the Word was made flesh in her womb, beginning the salvation of mankind, then maybe it was time to join St. Gabriel and proclaim the Virgin’s praises.

Part of my training at the SSPI was to study the spiritual gifts more and to discern what my personal spiritual gift might be. One of the discernment tools was a thought experiment: if I could have any three Christians of any time mentor me, who would they be? As an Anglican church-planter, I remembered the three British missionary bishops that I admired the most: St. Patrick of Ireland, St. Columba of Iona, and St. Boniface of Mainz. I prayed that God would show me which saint to study and emulate. Two weeks later, an experience convinced me that St. Boniface of Mainz was with me. I was so overwhelmed and confused that, while I did not address Boniface, I did ask God to please use that saint’s example to guide me. I then sensed God saying to me, “You feel comfortable here. Don’t get used to it.” Twenty-four hours later, I learned that Hurricane Michael was turning towards the Florida panhandle. In the dark of the night, my wife and I, with our three boys, fled back to Birmingham. Hours later, we learned that the hurricane had hit the part of Bay County in which we were planning to plant a church.

My diocesan bishop graciously released me from that assignment. Through a series of dramatic occurrences with clear messaging, my wife and I discerned a call to an Anglican church plant in western Montana. In 2019, we moved to Missoula. We loved Montana, yet ministry was difficult. My vision of pastoral ministry was different from that of my colleague. During this time, I asked St. Boniface of Mainz to pray for me. I learned that Boniface, like myself, had discovered a desire to be a foreign missionary at the age of twelve. Like me, he was shaped by Benedictine spirituality. Like me, he experienced disappointment and pain in his conflict with fellow missionaries, who claimed the Celtic missionary legacy, yet lacked sound discipline. Like me, Boniface’s first missionary effort was unsuccessful. Boniface’s solution? To unite more closely with Rome, so that his mission would be not of his own authority, but that of Christ’s vicar on earth — the Pope.

Schooled by Saints

I did what I could to ignore the striking difference between Saint Boniface and myself — unity with the Bishop of Rome. If Christ had actually set apart Peter as the prince of the apostles, then the apostolic succession in which I located my priestly authority was not what I thought. If the Catholic Church’s claims about the Petrine office were correct, then it would require me to pursue reconciliation with the chair of Peter, even at the expense of my ministerial office.

I connected with someone who I expected to be an ally against reunion with Rome, an Orthodox priest. As I spoke with Fr. Daniel Kirk, he and I both had the same anxieties. As pastors, we felt that our parishioners faced grave challenges, not only against chastity and sexual morality, but against human dignity itself, and that our respective traditions were powerless to provide sufficient solutions to people in the pews. Our churches had stopped “developing” doctrine since our respective communions broke with Rome. We had sixteenth and eleventh century answers for twenty-first century problems. Though not Catholic (yet), we were both looking to Pope St. John Paul II’s Theology of the Body for guidance to modern man’s most pressing questions about identity, love, and desire. The fact that we were looking to the papacy for answers made us think more deeply about the Catholic Church’s claims that the papacy is a divine institution of Christ, rather than a political invention of the medieval Church. We also discussed the famous work of St. John Henry Cardinal Newman, An Essay on the Development of Christian Doctrine, which he wrote during his own journey to the Catholic Church. Father Daniel, recognizing that I was asking the same questions he was, took a risk and invited me to a Catholic men’s group.

When I attended this group, I encountered men from a variety of trades and backgrounds, engaging at various levels with a discussion from St. Thomas Aquinas, praying the Divine Office of the Church, and singing beautiful Marian hymns. Here was a group where nothing had to be held back. Meanwhile, as I was planting an Anglican Church, I faced resistance from certain parishioners, who pitted my Catholic interpretation of Anglican theology against the Anglican Church’s own formularies of belief (the Thirty-Nine Articles).

My parishioners did not cause me to doubt my Catholic beliefs. They did, however, cause me to doubt the integrity or consistency of holding Catholic beliefs in the Anglican Church. As I became increasingly convinced of Catholic views on the Sacraments, of the Communion of Saints, and of the divine institution of the Papal office, I realized that two roads lay before me: I could either maintain my ordained office as an Anglican priest, all the while requesting my parishioners to trust my private judgment over their denomination’s teachings, or I could resign my position and submit to the teaching authority and institutional unity of the Catholic Church.

Joining the Catholic Church would be not only financially disastrous, but it would also be, in effect, burning to ashes my singular childhood dream: to be a preacher of the Gospel. After months of prayer, study, consultation, and discernment, I embraced the painful truth that I could either throw my vocation and livelihood at the feet of Christ or place my office above obedience to Christ’s call for unity — a call made possible by the unity of the one holy, catholic, and apostolic Church. I chose obedience, in the faith that God accepts our sacrifices and can raise life from ashes.

The choice was not easy. Lauren was understandably leery about throwing our expected future away for a belief that Jesus chose Peter as the head of the Apostles. However, our Catholic priest in town suggested that she ask St. Joseph for prayer. Lauren was not sure about this whole invocation-of-the-saints thing. But she knew that her husband was becoming a full-blown papist, so desperate times called for desperate measures. She asked Saint Joseph that very night to pray for our finances, given the gravity of the situation. The church-plant received a donation on our behalf for several thousand dollars the next day.

On April 3rd, 2021, my wife and I, along with our four sons, were received into the Catholic Church. Saint Boniface sponsored my entrance into the Church and St. Joseph sponsored my wife’s arrival. Surrendering my childhood dream of the pastorate was painful, but whatever plans God had for me were only attainable through obedience to revealed truth, not despite it. Lauren expresses gratitude on a weekly basis that we were brought into the Catholic Church. We both believe that we have finally come home.

Although I had stepped down from the priesthood, I did not step away from the mission field. On the contrary, I entered a “new evangelization.” Weeks after being confirmed, I was hired as the Director of Religious Education for Saint Matthew’s Catholic Church in Kalispell, Montana. I began my journey within the Church by teaching religion class to middle schoolers, boys and girls who are at that stage of life where I first discovered that my life could only find fulfillment through an adventure of obedience to Jesus Christ.

During my tenure at Saint Matthew’s Catholic Church, I was invited by Divine Mercy Academy in Belgrade, Montana, to become the head of the school. Divine Mercy Academy is both Catholic and classical and is deeply committed to Pope John Paul II’s vision of Christian humanism. Serving as the head of Divine Mercy Academy allows me to prepare young evangelists for a life-long vocation of witness in a modern world. Only God could weave together the various chapters of my family’s life into this integrated calling. The journey home to the Catholic Church has brought my entire family into a New Evangelization.

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Working at a Catholic non-profit organization for 13 years, helping those who are incapable of helping themselves, has been extremely rewarding. I also have a passion for writing and hope one day to establish an animal rescue haven, since God has blessed me with a deep love of animals. But, as is usually the case with life, things weren’t always so idyllic.

A Troubled Marriage

But let’s back up to those earlier times and my painful marriage to an abusive man, whom I had determined to divorce.

As an adult living in the city of Arlington, whose attendance at the local Protestant church was sparse at best, I could recall some Scripture, but I would never be able to find it for you in the Bible. I usually recognized Scripture as soon as I heard it, but I could rarely quote it correctly. Except John 3:16, of course. So, when a particular Scripture — Luke 16:18: “Every one who divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery, and he who marries a woman divorced from her husband commits adultery” — dropped into my head that day as I sat pondering my life as a soon-to-be single mother, I was pretty surprised. Why would that Scripture, of all things, have popped into my head? I dismissed it immediately. Who knew that verse would end up being such a “God moment” that it would lead me in search of an annulment — as a Protestant!?

That Old Time Religion

I was raised in church as a child of the ’60s. It was a little Baptist church, several blocks from our home, and I remember clearly holding my big sister’s hand while we walked to Sunday school, with my older brother walking beside us. My mother would usually meet us for church an hour later, although daddy never did come. But as I got older, middle schoolish, I disliked going immensely. It seemed like the girls in our church were very cliquish, and I never felt welcome. I would beg my mom not to make me go. And eventually, she no longer did. Though as I grew into adulthood, those roots were still very much there.

When I was in my early twenties, my sister invited me to go with her to a new church she was attending. It was a small, spirit-filled Baptist church. I really liked the preacher and his wife. They were very down to earth, and his sermons were relatable. So, I attended occasional Sunday services. I also joined in on a couple of women’s meetings during the weekdays. Several months later, while two months pregnant with my first child, I was baptized at that church.

We visited a couple of other churches as well. This was the early ’80s, so spirit-filled churches and/or full-gospel churches were growing hugely in popularity. But, as it turned out, my attending church was no longer conducive to being married to an abusive, jealous husband. So, I decided it would be best to stop attending church altogether, for the time being.

Over the years, my three children would sometimes attend church with their friends. I would talk to them about Jesus, salvation, and prayer. Eventually, my children and I started attending a little Baptist church in the tiny East Texas town where we lived. But when both of my oldest children wanted to be baptized, the preacher refused, citing several reasons for postponement. He finally admitted that he didn’t want to baptize them until we joined their church. It seemed the main focus was on “joining the church,” growing the church. His priorities troubled me.

There are always some things we are taught in church that we can’t quite get our head around, but we are told to accept them on faith. Of course, that’s the very crux of following Christ: walking in faith. And I did it gladly, with my whole heart. But there were a few things I was taught in every Protestant church I attended that I had a hard time accepting. For instance, if we “asked but did not receive,” then clearly, we had committed some sin. Another was “we aren’t meant to suffer.” Seriously? Again, they taught that great sin brings on suffering, like some kind of spiritual precept.

While I always had a problem accepting these teachings and practices, the biggest issue of all was “once saved, always saved.” I adamantly refused to accept that. It did not make sense. But clearly my opinion was mine alone, because it was taught in every church I attended, and everyone I knew believed it and lived by it.

As I mentioned, I talked with my children a lot about Jesus when they were young, since it is our prime objective as a parent to help our children accept Jesus Christ as their personal Savior, and all that this entails. I found it extremely difficult when we would touch on the subject of “once you accept Jesus as your personal Savior, you are going to Heaven. Period. Nothing can ever take that grace away from you, nothing you could ever do can forfeit that privilege.”

Old Time Religion Gets Old

I really struggled with that. So much so that, one day, when my 14-year-old son broached the subject, I felt almost like I was betraying him with the usual answer.

“You mean all I have to do,” he began, “is invite Jesus into my heart, and mean it, then someday, years later, if I just decide to go out and do all kinds of terrible stuff, I’m still going to Heaven?” I was literally nodding yes, while inside my head was a silent chant of “That is ridiculous! It makes no sense!” And while it did feel wrong to continue to tell my children that, I was helpless to teach them anything different. It was all I had ever been taught — in every church, every revival, every church camp, even TV evangelists. Perhaps it was simply all the churches that I happened to attend, but I was unaware of any Christian faith that did not believe “once saved, always saved.” Little did I know.…

I had even heard different TV evangelists comment that if you are able to go out and sin again after accepting Christ into your heart, then you were never truly saved in the first place. That seems to imply that we will be perfect after accepting Christ and we are expected never to sin again! Knowing human weakness, that was completely unacceptable to me, as well. What about being Jesus to those in need, cultivating a strong prayer life, personal holiness, and forging and protecting an intimate relationship with Christ?

Eventually, my divorce proceeded, and I began to feel a massive weight slowly lifting from my shoulders as the finalization date drew near. According to the promise I had made to myself years earlier, my daughters and I began visiting different churches in the area. Once again, I was not very comfortable in them. The people were nice, but they really lacked warmth. We just needed to keep trying. We would find our church-fit eventually.

Then, as before, that same Scripture about divorce that had haunted me popped into my head. This was twice that the same Scripture came to me, and given the circumstance I was in, I definitely could not dismiss it as I had previously done.

The Verse That Changed the Course

Once again, Luke 16:18: “…and he who marries a woman divorced from her husband commits adultery.” I had heard that verse spoken a few times in my life but had given it little thought. Nonetheless, whatever impression God wanted to make in me with that sudden spark of Scripture, it had worked.

After my divorce, I just wanted to be able to breathe. It had been many years of abuse, and the last thing I wanted to think about was getting married again. But somewhere, deep down inside, I knew one day I would. I wanted to experience the kind of marriage that God intended. I could only imagine a union so beautiful as that. There had to be a reason He had brought that Scripture to me, twice. I stressed over that incident for days, wanting to get it right. I even mentioned it to a couple of friends and family members, but not only did they insist that I was not interpreting it correctly, a couple of them seemed pretty offended that I had even brought it up.

My conclusion was that God’s plan for me was to never remarry. If that was God’s truth, drawn straight from Scripture, then I was glad to embrace it. For, through everything I had endured those past several years, Jesus accompanied me every step of the way. That was clear, and I was happy to sacrifice anything for Him.

Then, just as mysteriously as before, another word was now laid heavily upon me: annulment. Annul… what?? I didn’t understand the meaning of that word, and now it was suddenly right in my face. I had only heard it mentioned on TV, and if I remembered correctly, it was associated with “dissolving a marriage” (though, in reality, it means the Church determines a marriage never to have been a valid sacrament) and, most assuredly, associated with Catholics. Catholic was a word I had heard rarely while growing up, and I was fortunate to have never heard a harsh word toward Catholics or their beliefs. I even had a fascination with nuns in their habits, priests in their collars, all seen on TV, of course. Also, why were there special days marked on the calendar that, as my mother told me, were “holidays for other churches”? Ash Wednesday, Palm Sunday, First Sunday of Lent. Every time I filled out a hospital form, there was always a line that asked your religion — yet right under it was always another line asking, “Are You Catholic?” Weren’t we all supposed to be the same thing? The Catholic Church always seemed to be set apart from all other faiths and denominations. Why? I had always wondered.

Why, indeed!

So, suffice to say, I was definitely not anti-Catholic. But at the same time, other than the fascination with the collars and habits, I knew nothing about Catholicism, and the Catholic Church was nowhere on my radar.

By now I was really flying blind. The only thing I knew for certain was that I had to find out more about that word, “annulment.” I figured there was only one thing to do: talk to my dear friend who lived just down the road. The only Catholic I had ever known.

My friend, Nancy, was fully aware of the kind of marriage I had been in and was supportive of everything I was going through. She was almost giddy when I told her that I felt like God was putting the word “annulment” heavily on my heart. I asked her to shed some light on what that actually was. Later, I would learn she was so excited because she felt sure that, when I went seeking an annulment, my journey would almost surely lead me straight into the Catholic Church.

She and her husband traveled out of the country annually for their business, which was exactly where they were headed early the following morning, but she assured me we’d discuss annulments when she returned. I found that somewhat disappointing, because I was so anxious to find out about this “annulment” thing.

As always, when they went out of the country, I was to take care of their house, the plants, and the horses — though, according to Nancy, their new ranch hand, Ken, would be taking over the care of the horses for the winter. About one week after they left the country, I met Ken. He was Catholic and went to church with Nancy. He was the choir director there, but Ken was not just Catholic. He was excited to be Catholic! He talked about how he came into the church and about Catholicism — my new word — with exuberance. He was like a walking billboard for the Catholic faith. He was also charismatic, personable, and humorous. I wasn’t sure of most of what he was saying or any of those new Catholic terms.

During the month that followed, while my friend was out of the country, I saw Ken a couple of times a week, and we quickly became friends, both making it clear that we would only be friends. We helped each other with our various duties on Nancy’s ranch, and Ken continued to share about the Catholic Church.

Then, on the first Sunday of Nancy’s return, off we went to her Catholic church where, after Mass, she introduced me to the priest.

The priest and I immediately began to discuss annulments. He explained the process; possibly long and arduous, he warned. That was fine with me. There really wasn’t a question of Do I want to do this? Or Is this really necessary? I knew it was where God had led me. So, I certainly wasn’t going to question it. The priest also left me with the offer of perhaps attending a few RCIA classes, that I might better understand the Church’s reasoning behind an annulment.

RCIA, a Road Dotted With Grace

It would be several months before the next RCIA class began; several months of continuing to attend Mass with Nancy and still not understanding most of it, though Nancy walked me through it faithfully every Sunday, and of course, Ken stood at the front of the church directing the choir.

There was something about that little church nestled in the small town of Canton, Texas. Everyone I met was friendly, and I felt welcomed. But there was something else. Something I could feel. Something that was not at any other church where I had been. I suspected that maybe the Holy Spirit was just stronger in that church for some reason. Whatever it was, I was increasingly drawn to it.

During this time of awaiting RCIA class, Ken and I hung out more and more; from riding to church together to quick trips to Wal-Mart, and of course, to the theater, still keeping our friendship on a friends-only level; we were adamant about it. He said very little about the annulment I was seeking, even though he had gone through one himself.

By the time RCIA class started, my divorce was final and now I was going to learn all about annulments and the difference between a divorce and an annulment. But those simple classes would be anything but simple. Much to my shock, it turned out that everything else I was learning was absolutely jaw dropping. I was hearing answers. Answers!… to the many issues I had with certain Protestant things I’d been taught. Oh! to hear that we will suffer at times in our lives, but that we have the opportunity to offer it up and ask for it to be received by Jesus and used for the good of the Church and the whole world! Now this was a teaching that resonated, made sense, elevated suffering to an efficacious, redemptive, and profound offering of love. I would never view suffering the same way again. And, yes, I even learned of a solid rebuttal for “once saved, always saved” which, along with the enlightenment about suffering, aligned perfectly with Purgatory.

It was like hearing big wooden puzzle pieces suddenly dropping into place. I was so excited I could hardly sleep each night after class. I just wanted to share it with everyone. That’s when the glaring difference between Catholicism and Protestantism truly came to light for me. Unfortunately, the excitement I felt, the desire I had to share what I’d learned and to let everyone in on this huge discovery I had made — these things would be rejected by some. Protestant family and friends were not particularly interested in hearing all about my new journey. Except for my brother letting me know that he was not happy about my looking into Catholicism, everyone pretty much kept their opinions to themselves.

It would seem that, somewhere along the way, I was beginning to see myself in the Catholic Church. As with many converts, some of the things I questioned were praying to the saints, confession, and the Magisterium. I had absolutely no problem accepting the high honor of Mary, praying to her, or the Eucharist or even Purgatory. Especially Purgatory. That is something that made sense to me. While the words in the Bible, Old Testament pointing to the New Testament, were suddenly coming alive, the depth, truth, and beauty of the Eucharist and of Mary were also being confirmed in my spirit. I was seeing these things with fresh eyes, allowing myself to see them as the incredible love story that they truly are.

Over time, the Bible also made clear to me the workings of, and need for, the Magisterium. Eventually, too, I came to understand the huge role that the saints play in our lives every single day, coming to think of them as family. After all, even as Protestants, we never discounted the roles of the Archangels Gabriel or Michael. So why would we ever see the other saints in any lesser light? What a beautiful discovery!

Halfway into that RCIA year, I knew where I wanted to be. I knew where God was leading me. There was way too much truth and eye-opening discovery in this new word, Catholicism, to ignore. I was going to be Catholic.… I was home!

But also, barely halfway into the year, the teacher at that time was going through many health problems — on top of losing her husband — and as a result, she was out of class a lot. We had substitute teachers, cancelled classes, and later I would realize that a few important topics had been missed during that year.

The RCIA class in and of itself was amazing. I felt great love and comfort among my fellow converts and teachers. RCIA is a convert’s first glimpse into the Catholic faith, which makes it all the more compelling. The very first words our teacher spoke wer to explain who founded some of the various faith denominations: Baptist, Methodist, Pentecostal, etc. Then, when she said the Catholic Church was founded by Jesus Christ himself, everything in my world shifted. The depths that the teachers go to in order to equip us with knowledge, with an armor of truth, knows no bounds. Not only was it evident that the teachers were eloquently led by the Holy Spirit, but the very presence of the Holy Spirit was overwhelming to me at times. I attend RCIA classes quite often to this day, and I am still always taken aback at how the teachers can take two thousand years steeped in rich history and profound glory and mold them into something that a simple layperson like me can actually grasp and understand.

On the Sunday that we were all to go to the Cathedral for the Rite of Acceptance, we candidates were in a little room, waiting for the moment when we would enter the Cathedral. I glanced at the table in front of me, and there were a couple of pamphlets there. Lone pamphlets, just sitting in the middle of the table. I couldn’t help but notice that the picture of the saint on the pamphlet was a little girl. Just as I reached for it we were called into the Cathedral, so I stuck the pamphlet into the black abyss of my purse.

Weeks passed, and at last it was Easter Vigil. I watched as the two people I had gone through RCIA class with came into full union with the Catholic Church. It was exciting to see, quite emotional.

At last, after waiting almost eighteen months for my annulment to be finalized, the Sunday came when I was to be confirmed into the Church. I was beyond excited about being able to receive the Eucharist for the first time. As I stood at the doorway of the nave, about to proceed down the aisle behind the priest, one of the deacons asked for the name of my patron Saint, as they write it on a sticker and put it on your chest.

“My what?” I asked, with the deer-in-the-headlights look on my face.

“Your patron Saint. What is the name of your patron Saint?”

I said earlier that a few things had been completely omitted in my RCIA class due to the unforeseen confusion of the stop-gap teaching during our instructor’s difficult year and many crises. So here I was, just staring at the deacon, not knowing what to say. Finally, I told him I didn’t know what he was talking about. He then gave me a quick 30-second tutorial on the subject.

“Do you not know about any saints at all?”

I stood shaking my head No… then remembered the little pamphlet I had grabbed off the table at the Rite of Acceptance. A pamphlet I had never even looked at afterwards.

I said, “Well, I have heard of one saint. A little girl. She had a very odd last name. But I don’t know anything about her.”

The deacon smiled and asked me, “Was it Maria Goretti?”

“Yes,” I nodded. “I think that was it.”

“Do you want her to be your patron Saint?”

I nodded. Who else would I choose? I knew of no one else.

He quickly wrote down her name, I slapped it on my shirt, and down the aisle we went.

I was confirmed. I received the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of my Savior for the first time. At that moment, I knew I would never regret seeking that annulment and finding the Catholic Church; I also knew I would never be the same.

No Longer Saintless

Several weeks later, I thought about that Sunday I stood at that doorway, saintless. Then it occurred to me that I had not yet read about the little girl saint. My patron Saint. I thought I might want to find out about her. So, I pulled out the pitiful pamphlet (now dogeared from its mileage in my purse) and read it. Tears filled my eyes in an instant. Her story was exactly what I needed. The tears tumbled. Once again, I was completely overwhelmed by my Jesus and His all-encompassing love for me.

Maria Goretti is a saint of abused people.

I know beyond a shadow of any doubt that every single unexplainable moment and circumstance during that time of my life, from the Scripture laid on my heart all the way to the pamphlet with the little girl’s picture on it, and all the moments in between, were beautifully and perfectly orchestrated by my Jesus.

God meant for me to find the Catholic Church.… I believe it always has been His will.

And a happy sidenote: the ranch hand/choir director, Ken, and I have been happily married for 17 years.

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